So after my phone appointment with academic and career advising people at my college to look over my cover letter and resume I feel:
- Relieved that I didn’t do everything wrong
- Overwhelmed at all of the things that need to be included
- Vastly unqualified for anything ever.
More to add to the list of things that endlessly frustrate me these days.
I think my mother is less than pleased about how rusty my drumming has been at rehearsal (She’s the director of the community band and needed another drummer).
My parents are the ones who ruined one of my bass drum pedals and won’t make room in the basement for my set.
Why is it when I’m looking to for part time jobs they are basically thrown in my lap, and when I need a real job I can look for a year and not find anything?
Seriously, I’ve never had to look more than a few weeks for a part time, or summer job. It’s when I’m looking for something full time I JUST CAN’T FIND JACK SHIT.
I decided last week since I can’t find a real job I’d pick up another part time job to make ends meet. I’ve already been warned summer payroll at Teavana is going to be terrible and I have bills to pay. WELL since then I’ve been handed applications for two different stores, BY A MANAGER and been told to fill them out because they are looking for part time help and they think I’d be a good fit.
I mean ya, that’s great and all but why can’t I find a real job?
IT’S BEYOND FRUSTRATING.
I think if I don’t get called into work tomorrow I’m going to stage a hostile takeover of my parents basement so I have room for my drum set.
It’s not fair that I can’t play it, so I’m going to protest.
I need to start playing again.
Why can’t I just pick Pokemon Gym Leader as a career?
Or State Alchemist??
I swear I’m an adult.
So the theme of today was apparently everything about my life that annoys me happened today. Don’t get me wrong, my life isn’t bad by any standards, I’m just not where I want to be right now.
I’m capable of so much more than where I am now and I feel like I’m just wasting all of my potential here. I’m just wasting away and letting my cynicism get the better of me. I don’t know what I want to do with my life but I want it to mean something.I have no idea how to do that but I need to figure something out soon.
This entire week has just made me want to smash me head into things.
Life after college blows.
I should probably start writing again soon.
Maybe my new years resolution will be to write something every day.
I do have that nifty writing minor I can do stuff with.
FUCK MY LIFE
Well maybe I won’t be able to move out now that I know how much I’m supposed to pay a month.
Sometimes I think I can’t afford the amount of beer it would take to keep myself sane living at home.